So yes I had a binge Yesterday, but the good news is how I handled the situation after the binge. I immediately went back to drink a lot of water, and here is where I went differently:
1) I didn’t skip dinner or breakfast out of guilt as I usually do. I ate a lite meal for dinner which was low in carbohydrates and fat. Then I also had a light breakfast or oats this morning.
2) After the binge I felt sad, guilty and pathetic, but not as much as I usually do. I know now that I have this ED, and I am going to stop martyr myself about it and start developing methods to prevent it. And the “not so hard on myself” helped a lot. I went straight back on track, and even though I know I fucked up, I feel good and happy to be eating healthy.
This is good for me. I just want to exercise, drink water and devour a salad.