5’1. 130 to 113 pounds.
I slowly changed my eating habits and overall lifestyle. I have only recently started working out. Cutting out processed food has made a huge difference mentally and physically. My goal is now to gain muscle and be toned. I post all my meals on instagram! You can follow me at @melr0ser :)
So yes I had a binge Yesterday, but the good news is how I handled the situation after the binge. I immediately went back to drink a lot of water, and here is where I went differently:
1) I didn’t skip dinner or breakfast out of guilt as I usually do. I ate a lite meal for dinner which was low in carbohydrates and fat. Then I also had a light breakfast or oats this morning.
2) After the binge I felt sad, guilty and pathetic, but not as much as I usually do. I know now that I have this ED, and I am going to stop martyr myself about it and start developing methods to prevent it. And the “not so hard on myself” helped a lot. I went straight back on track, and even though I know I fucked up, I feel good and happy to be eating healthy.
This is good for me. I just want to exercise, drink water and devour a salad.
So, the water pipes to our units has been down for the last 3 days. 2 I had to wash myself out of a little bucket of water. My washing machine gave in last night just as the water came on. I couldn’t go jog last night because my husband came in too late, and I had a binge yesterday (angry face).
My husband had to work until 10pm last night and I have to work at 6 am in the morning already. The cats food is finished and my car has no gas left. My wallet is empty and crying out loud for the end of the month and I am as sleep deprived as a mother with twins.
So, I guess I must be crazy, because I feel good. I am in such an energetic mood. This is crazy, I should be grumpy as hell!
Life is good!!